In the beginning, there was a breakdown... And then it got interesting

Hello! I am glad you are here, reading this and wondering why the hell you should give a shit about what I have to say. There is a consolidation of information here that will either impress you or make you laugh at me, either way, I have thick enough skin to tolerate both.

In 2010  I had a massive breakdown, both emotionally and physically. I just fell apart to point where I couldn't get back up for a few months. I lay, withering in doubt and despair and all I could think was... this is it? After everything I had been through, this was the fucking moment I would finally stop getting back up? And three months after that initial breakdown, I got back up, on wobbling legs and tired spine. But I did get back up. Healing takes a lot out of person, man, it's exhausting, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Humans, though, are built to survive. We endure and can endure a great deal and yes, it will change us mentally, but it can also reward us.

Fast forward to 2011 and I still was not getting better, at least not at the pace I wanted. A friend of mine suggested I play a video game, just to distract me from things until I could focus. I played Dragon Age: Origins and I was instantly hooked. I then played Portal 2 and then Dragon Age 2, then Mass Effect Trilogy, and then Skyrim and Assassin's Creed, and then Borderlands, and I got better. I discovered by playing for two hours a day, some days I would play for 4 - 6 hours, I could think clearer, I could focus and I got better.

Before my breakdown I worked on a help desk and I hated that fucking job so much. I was suppose to help stupid people fix their stupid mistake because they rushed through a step or two and messed things up. It was one of the worst jobs of my life and I hated every bit of it but I had to feed my family, so I endured it. The stress of working on a help desk is indescribable. As I got better I knew I could never return to a help desk job and after I took one to try to return to work, I discovered I was very right.

So, where did that leave me? I had to work, but I couldn't. I suffer from major depression and agoraphobia. Don't know what agoraphobia is? It's the fear of being outside, in general terms. I go into panic attacks if I think about leaving the house or actually do leave the house. I had to figure out a way to A. work, and B. work from home. If anyone has every tried to find work from home jobs, they know that most are shams or pyramid schemes. But luckily, we live in a technological revolution and anything is possible.

Something I noticed as I was looking through blogs and YouTube channels and gaming sites and etc. There were no blogs etc by people who were my age and just starting with gaming and coding. There were people who started young and then kept learning coding and remained gamers into their later adulthood, but nothing for people who were 44 and just staring.

That is where Dusa Dog Games comes in! My baby, my idea, my new job, MY BUSINESS! I am starting an indie gaming company and I welcome you on this journey. I began with a small handicap, I have no coding experience, no art experience, no real gaming experience. But what I do have is intense ambition, dedication to a goal, and an insatiable appetite for learning. Those combined I will... let me repeat that... I WILL make this company successful and I will create my first game.

I am starting small, I am learning to create Android Apps and Android Games, C++, Javascript, and HTML. I am also learning Poser (a 3-D Character Art and Animation software) and Photoshop. Here I will share my journey and experience and along the way perhaps meet some kinder spirits also on the same journey.

Welcome to Dusa Dog Games!